(to xinyi&kahwai, as there are lots of photos to be uploaded, i'll upload slowly.hahaaa. people here lazy ma. ) :D
Hello dearies ]:
yea, i sounded really sad? disappointing? angry?
i really dono what expression i can have now.
i finally knew what's the problem that is straining between us.
i finally knew, but we are not "chatting" we are arguing instead.
opposition has witnesses? and it's kinda ???
you tell me that the whole school knows about this, but HOW I COME I DONT EVEN KNOW THAT AT ALL?
and rather you dont trust me but that 2 rumored questions.
people can just insists on you are at wrong if the opposition has back up? this is human nature.
people say friendship are brittle.
yes, it's true. once an misunderstanding broke it, even you are back friends, you cant gain their trust back again.
they might even betray you.
why i know well? cos i was betrayed be her today, 12AUG2008 marked down.
2 and the half years of friendship, all the trust that i have on her, but yet she still betrayed me..
do you know how heartbroken i was?
DO YOU KNOW!
my heart really shattered after i heard that.
your one word "YES" breaks my whole heart.
it's really painful being betrayed.
why must you do that to me?
i wanted to call you to do some class admin and clear out this things, but you choose to reject my calls, avoiding me.
are you guilty or wad?
i really dono what to do.
my class is like ganging up and gang against me.
i can fall anytime.
but i was rather lucky like what tania say, i can get to see who are my true friends.
True friends will accommodate one another and not always following them as they want.
True friends let you have the feeling of being yourself in the clique.
and i'm glad to have Jaslyn, Tania :D , Cherilynn, Bena accompany me in my darkest moment.
they let me have the "be my true self" feeling. it's very comfortable going with them together.
really. [:
i really love you all, thanks for all the encouragement , especially tania. (:
i will say bye to my betrayer's gang.
and welcoming my realistic one.
tania, i've made my decision wisely.
i've decided and i hope you read this post of mine.
but of course i wont leave, my dawn and yuzhen, well, beverly too (:
they are the above 3 that share the same topics with me.
i'm really gald to have you 3 there at that time.
but i have to let go, a time's betraying is a great blow to me already,
i dont wanna hurt myself again.
Goodbye popularity, hello realistic.
i bet no one will understand the above sentence except for tania.
she pulled me up again.
now what i can is to stay strong.
well, i did try my best to control today but upon seeing muanting.
LOL! i'm sorry to those who were being pulled down ridiculously cos it's not i mention but somehow someone does.
so i have to ask and clarify it.
nights people.
i hope tmr is a better day although i know it's not as they are finding more trouble towards me again, i guessed.
this matter will not rest very soon.
i hope that the betrayer knows how to clarify class admin and friendship.
i have no more trust towards her anymore.
TAGS REPLIED :
♥ kuku mei : (:
♥ Michelle : HELLO SWEETIEE! i miss you ALOT ALOT TOO!
♥ Xunlan : No wonder you cant pass humans, you must study that. yea. but well, we get to see her life begins at fourty (;
♥ Rachel : HAHAHAS! can can! (: congrats to malaysia!
♥ Fiona : HAHAS! yeap! (: maybe we will go into the same school then go shop together and all that. we'll be much more closer [: i miss you! i miss those days! i really miss you! i wanna talk to you soooo much! hahas! thanks! :D i always remember this lovely cuzzie of mine! :))
♥ Kahwai : HAHAHAHS! YOOOO DEAR! xD
♥ Litingg gajei : HAHAHAS! i missed it today! ): but i have mobtv! HEHEEEE. yeaps, she is (: from CR start de :D HAHAHAHS!
♥ Jason Yuen : HAHAHS! yeaps (: china is leading with much GOLD medals. LOL! thanks dear! :D LOVE YA MY LOVELY LOLLIPOP! :D
♥ Xenia : HELLO! hahas! SURE :]
♥ Hugo : HELLO! :) hmmm, cos there are ALOT of photos being uploaded thus, my blog couldnt really shown on IE, but firefox can. haahas! thanks! and yeaps, it's sung by linda chung :D i love that song! HEHEEE! :D
As i get my hopes up,
and i watched them fall everytime,
another colour turns to grey~
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